Monday, July 09, 2007

Nothing to Say

This is a bad position for a Communications Director to be in. My home life is less than exciting. I get up, go to work, come home, maybe eat dinner out, crash and sleep through the night. My poor brain is being drained at work these days. I'm not even sure why! I just know that it can't think well in the evenings. That's definitely not what I would like to see happening for myself!

Part of the trouble is that I've been shifting my life back to being a morning person and I don't want to accept that. I get up between 6:00 - 7:00 in the morning and expect to be able to stay up until after midnight! Bad Diane.

I've been thinking a lot about prayer lately. I haven't felt terribly 'close' to God. Oh, I talk at Him - ask Him to deal with things going on in the world and in my friends' lives, etc. I thank Him for the things that are going on around me on a daily basis. I ask for Him to guide me as I do things. I want desperately to be within His will, but I haven't taken the time to simply be quiet before Him. There are always a million things that need my attention.

It feels like we live in the same house, but aren't really taking the time to sit down and talk to each other. We have meals together, but there are always other people hanging out with us, so it's never an intimate conversation. We're in the same room together, but I'm watching television and He's sitting on the sofa waiting for me to pay attention to Him.

Oh my ... sometimes this is the same relationship that I have with Max! And our relationship suffers as well when I allow this to go on for too long.

Maybe this is why I haven't had much to say lately. I'm not communicating well with anyone!

Ok, God. What's up and what do You need to say to me? I suspect it's time I really listen to You!


Jacqniel said...

I have been pondering what God's will is for me. I keep asking for a mininstry to touch my heart and to become a part of- but all I hear is 'be still'. Diane, I have spent so much of my life in a hurry and so 'busy' I have almost always put God on the backburner - even when I felt I was doing His works. But lately, in my devotions, in my prayers I just hear 'be still'. So God is now teaching me a new kind of patience and a new way of life. I am still fighting Him - I need to stop and follow His voice.
Not my will but Yours, dear Lord. Wow is this hard.

Diane Muir said...

What I've learned from the "Be Still" season is that you will learn something during that period that He needs you to share later. It definitely is time to stop and follow His voice.

Esther 4:14