Reality

It's always so hard to go through amazing weekends like the Beth Moore conference and then return to reality. not that I don't love my reality, but is there a way that I can maintain that intense sense of being in God's presence 24/7?

Actually, I think it would wear me out. I doubt that I could function normally with my head continually processing on the things of God. I don't multitask THAT well. But, oh my ... it would be amazing to even approach that sense of worship on a moment by moment basis.

I spent way too much money on books and CDs at the conference. One of the books I walked away with has the potential of changing my life. IF I can accept the reality of what the guy is trying to teach me! "Freedom from Busyness: Biblical Help for Overloaded People" by Michael Zigarelli. Did you know that multitasking makes you stupid? Uh oh. This is not a good thing in my world. I do my very best to multitask so that I can accomplish as much as possible in a single moment. He says "Habitual multitasking culminates in greater stress and in short-term memory loss." Hmmm ... he might be right!

Some of the chapter titles in this book really intrigue me: Too Busy for God, Too Busy for your Marriage, Too Busy for Other People. Hmmm ... I'm there with that one! All of those.

Freedom through Saying No: The Bible on Saying No, Give Yourself Permission to Say No, Say No to Perfectionism, Say No to Your Kids, Say No to TV. Of all of those, there is only one I don't have to focus on - I have no kids. Good heavens! I am in deep doo doo!

Freedom through Slowing Down: Fast is the Enemy of Love (wow, that hits me hard - I want nothing more than to love and show love), God Wants You to Rest (uh oh), Minimize Multitasking and Live in the Moment (alright, already! I'm going to work on it!), Reframe Your Prayer Life, An Email is Not Enough. Sheesh - Leave me alone!

Freedom through Simple Living. Ok ... fine! So, I'm going to process through this book the way it recommends that I do and we'll see what happens. There are 20 lessons that I need to work through and see if I can pull my life back into something that is exciting to live and not tedious.

Don't get me wrong, I love my life. But, if I could make a better life for myself and my husband by simply being aware of where I'm pushing things too hard, why wouldn't I try it?

There are a lot of things that I want to read over the next few weeks. Because not only did I buy books at the conference, we went to Parables afterwards and I found a couple of other books that leaped off the shelf at me. I can't wait to find out what God has to say to me through these books. I'll never give up learning, so ... off I go!